Through My Tears...I Will Praise HIM!

As most of you know I am not a super private person. Michael and I tell our stories to anyone, and I felt like I wanted to share the last couple weeks with my readers (since most of you are my close friends and family). As many of you know before I got pregnant with Addie I had a miscarriage. It is such a interesting thing. I never understood how it hurts your heart to lose a baby so early. It seems like, that baby never really developed, you didn’t have much time with them, it was so early, but it hurts just the same. Along with miscarriages come the questions “What if I can’t get pregnant?” “What if this is something I will keep experiencing?” Those are hard questions to wrestle with. I am blessed for a couple reasons. 1. I have a God that I know I can trust, this doesn’t mean I know he will make me pregnant but I know he loves me and more importantly I trust him that this life is not about that, this life is about bringing Glory to His name and somehow this is just another way to bring Him Glory. I truly believe this, this life is not about me but HIM!! I have so much comfort in that! 2. I have had the amazing experience of being pregnant and have the most amazing child because of it. Addie is truly AMAZING!!! If you haven’t gotten to spend a lot of time with her just trust me that child is the most gentle-hearted, sweet, loving, fun, and easy going child. We love her dearly and are so happy she is ours.

So now that I have caught you up on the last couple years, a couple weeks ago I took a pregnancy test and it said pregnant! Yay we were so excited because we want our children to be close together and this would put them about 26 months apart, perfect! Once again Michael and I can’t keep our mouths shut so we proceeded to tell our immediate family and those we see on a regular basis. About a week ago I started experiencing the same symptoms I had during my first miscarriage. I immediately called my doctor and when I talked to the nurse she didn’t sound very hopeful and said I was probably experiencing another miscarriage. Remember how I talked about how sweet Addie is. When I got off the phone I immediately hit the floor sobbing (I am an emotional basket case) and that sweet child ran over to me and wrapped her arms around my neck. She laid her head on my shoulder and from time to time she would look up to see if I was still crying. What an amazing comfort she was during that time. The next week was an emotional roller coaster. Much like the time before we went to the doctor and they saw the sac (last time we actually heard the heart beat) and they said that everything looked normal right then and that we would just have to wait it out. The waiting is hard because you want to cling to the hope but when the symptoms just keep getting worse I think you know what is happening. This morning we went back to the doctor and we got the news that we already knew. We lost the baby. Honestly when I got pregnant this time I didn’t think as much about a miscarriage and I guess it was because I got pregnant with Addie in between so I thought I was in the clear.

At this point we aren’t going to do any testing or anything even though that was offered to us. We are clinging to the two things I stated above 1. We have hope in our God 2. We did get pregnant before so it seems like I would be able to get pregnant again.

A friend of mine sent me this verse today and it so true, God is bigger than everything:

Isaiah 45:5-7

"5 I am the LORD, and there is no other, besides me there is no God; I equip you, though you do not know me, 6 that people may know, from the rising of the sun and from the west, that there is none besides me; I am the LORD, and there is no other. 7I form light and create darkness, I make well-being and create calamity, I am the LORD, who does all these things."

I also posted this yesterday on facebook, they are lyrics from a song I heard:

"Lead me to your heart, rid me of myself, I belong to you!" No matter what happens in this life I am His and He deserves ALL glory.

So through my tears I will praise HIS name! Love you all!


Sarah Beth

18 MONTHS

Today Addie is 18 months old!  Since I don't have it together enough for one of those cute month shots that mom's tend to do I thought I would just unload some pics and videos from my phone for you to enjoy:

Eating her typical dinner (mac n cheese).  Seriously I am so bad with dinner.  I try to get her to eat other things and venture out but usually it is a big accomplishment if she eats even a bite or two.  I could send her to bed without eating but who wants to wake up in the middle of the night with a hungry baby?  So we always end up giving her mac n cheese.  She doesn't pitch a fit or anything she simply says "no" to other foods and will want to get down and just not eat!  So mac n cheese it is.  Plus she is forced to eat other foods at daycare or so I tell myself :)

Bath time video:  So another silly parenting thing, Addie took a bath in a baby bath tub (you know the one in the sink) until about 2 weeks ago!  Every time we tried to put her in the big bath tub she would scream bloody murder like she was scared to death.  Anyways about 2 weeks ago we tried again and she cried at first (not as bad as usual) but then once she was in there for a minute she started playing with the toys and cried when we tried to take her out of the tub.  Now she loves baths..YAY

Showing her bear how to play with the toy:

Too cool for school:

I love when we get her laughing really good, her dad was really getting her here:

What is better than a Popsicle on a hot day!

Ok so I hope you enjoyed.  I don't know her stats yet because we haven't been to the doctor.  Here is what I do know she is probably close to 22 lbs and that means it is time to buy new car seats (yes she is still in the pumpkin seat). 

We still love our precious girl like crazy!!!  She is the most amazing baby EVER!  Ok I might be a little partial but I seriously believe it is true.

NY & Addie Update

I am an awful blogger once again….Ok my few readers that are hanging in there with me.  I am sorry I don’t do more posts.  Honestly our days seem to look mostly the same here lately.  Get up, get Addie up, go to work, pick Addie up, go home, play and get dinner ready, put Addie to bed and then Mommy and Daddy fall on the couch and relax for a couple hours before going to bed. 

However there are some things that have happened recently that I would love to share with you.  First Michael and I went on a Mission Trip to New York.  It was AMAZING!!!  I will return to that in just a moment but it is important that you know this was my first time away from Addie for more than 24 hours (I don’t think I had even been away from her for a full 24 hours before).   It was the first time and I was not just leaving her for a day or two, I was going to be gone for an entire week (Saturday to Saturday).  This wasn’t quite as dramatic for Michael since he has to leave her from time to time to go on work trips but for me it was hard.  We are so incredibly fortunate to have amazing parents that both live here in town that took care of our sweet baby.  They even put up with my crazy notes (seriously like 3 pages of notes) on what to do with Addie.  I know they raised us and we turned out ok however as a mom I just think but “this is MY baby”.  They were very patient with me as I was very hesitant about leaving her for the first time.  They even humored me as I talked to them about not letting her near chemicals (duh).    The morning I left her, my mom came to my house and was playing with her as Michael and I left for the airport.  There were many tears on my end.  I hated leaving that sweet girl.  Once we got to the airport and the trip began we stayed very busy and I was pretty proud of myself because I didn’t get emotional again until she came to the airport to pick us up. JoJo, Papa and Mimi did such a great job of sending pictures, videos and constant updates on Addie that I wasn’t really ever very worried about her. It was a successful trip and now I don’t think I will be nearly as anxious to leave her again. 

Now on to the trip, We went to New York to work with a local organization (see the video below):

It is seriously such a great organization and concept for getting to interact with people from all across the globe.  That statistics on New York are striking:

New York City

Population

·         Population of NYC: 8.5 million people

·         Population of New York metropolitan area: 20-22 million people

·         NYC is the most populous metropolitan area in the United States and the sixth most populous in the world

Language

·         176 languages spoken by students in the New York City Public School System

·         Linguistic experts estimate over 800 languages in NYC

People Groups

·         Danny Goldfield has photographed children from 172 different geopolitical nations who are residents of NYC (http://dannygoldfield.com/100_photographs/)

·         As of November 2010, Metro New York Baptist Association estimates 500+ people groups live in the Metro New York area.

The Need

·         Southern and Midwestern United States = 1 evangelical church per every 1000 people

·         NYC = 1 evangelical church per every 8500 people

·         22,000 churches need to be planted in order to bring the ratio of NYC up to the Southern and Midwestern areas of the United States.

·         Much of the church-planting effort has been focused on Manhattan, with limited focus on the ethnically diverse outlying boroughs.

·         NYC vs. Bible Belt

o   Alabama: Population: 4,708,708; 41% evangelical; 717 people/evangelical church

o   New York County (Manhattan): 2.3% evangelical; 10,529 people/church

o   Queens County: 1.9% evangelical; 8542 people/church

o   Metro NYC: Population: 21,104,292; 2.3% evangelical; 8517 people/church

o   This means that the metro NYC area has the lowest percentage of evangelicals of any major US city.

God Is At Work

·         Before September 11, 2001: 0.5% evangelical in Manhattan

·         Today: 2.3% evangelical in Manhattan

It was such an incredible trip, we got to see parts of New York I never knew existed and come in contact with different people groups I had never met.  It was so eye opening, all the people from across the world right here in the US.  We don’t see that often here in Birmingham, AL.  I was amazed at the cultures created around New York City.  We spent most of our days in the ESL center teaching English or helping the local ministries pass out flyers about upcoming bible camps, cook outs or kids camps.  We also got to go and see the area that Brook Hills is sending a couple out to plant a church.  We talked to them for a while about their vision for the church and NY City.  We did have one free day where we got to do the traditional touristy things.  Here are some pics from that day:

Thank you to everyone for your prayers and support.  Please keep this ministry in your prayers as we left them behind to continue to press on in New York City.

ADDIE:

Ok now on to some fun things on Addie.  Addie is back on the growth charts.  She was falling off the chart for a while and having to go to the doctor once a month to monitor that she was gaining enough weight.  She is now back on the chart (still below 5%) but she doesn’t have to go to the doctor once a month.  Here is what she is eating: Cheese (she loves cheese, like mother like daughter), mac n cheese, crackers (on any kind, but her favorite is Peanut Butter Ritz Bits), fruit (mainly pears and peaches but she does venture out some), veggies (not much but some green beans, potatoes, english peas), yogurt, and she drinks juice, milk and water.  This is mainly it.  Her daycare provides meals and snacks for her and often times she does not eat much of what they serve.  They keep a food log for her since the doctor recommended it due to her weight and not eating enough.  When I pick her up it often says this: 

AM Snack – Animal crackers (or something close)

Lunch – Would not eat lunch, ate some Banana Pudding, fruit or the like

PM Snack – Popsicle

Needless to say when she gets home we eat a snack (usually Peanut Butter crackers) and she will down it, the girl is hungry.  After she eats her snack at 4:45 she usually won’t eat much for dinner and definitely won’t venture out to “other” foods.  Any helpful hints on how to get Addie to eat a better variety of food? She seems to have enough to eat by the end of the day because the girl definitely sleeps at night.  We put her down at about 7:00 at night and she doesn’t wake up until at least 7 the next morning but sometimes it is closer to 8:00, the morning after we got back from NY she slept until 8:40, she is so sweet and knew Mommy and Daddy needed some sleep! J

She has got the BEST personality.  She is just happy and content.  She had her first temper tantrum the other day and I know those days might be coming.  At first I got frustrated that she screamed for like seriously maybe 5-10 mins and then I then I was immediately thankful, thinking that some moms have to deal with this on a more regular basis.  Seriously I feel so grateful and know that my next one will probably be a handful.  Addie is definitely into everything, she loves to open draws, purses, bags, anything she can go through.  We host Bible Study at our house every Tuesday and Addie loves to try to go through all the girls’ purses.  She also is loving crayons, but not in the traditional sense.  She might make a mark or two but she loves to take them out of the box one by one and go put them in a kitchen drawer.  This is actually a good game that keeps her busy for a while.  She also knows what it means when I say let’s put them up, she will say “up” and start collecting the crayons to and putting them back in the box.  She also loves to be chased, caught and tickled.  Hearing her laugh is so much fun and it sounds more like a little sequel.   She really didn’t like going outside in the past and ofcourse now that it is like 100 degrees she loves to go outside.  We get home and she walks to the front door points to where the keys hang and says “ruff” which means let’s go outside and see if any dogs are out.  That brings me to my next fun thing.  Addie LOVES dogs!  It is crazy that my child loves dogs, that is the way it goes I guess.  My sister and her husband have dogs and when she stays with them she wants to be around the dogs constantly and she even wakes up saying “ruff ruff”.  It is the funniest thing.

Addie is also very sweet.  The ladies at her daycare say she hugs on all the other kids.  They said if another child is crying that Addie will go give them a hug and pat them.  However if the kid keeps crying for a while she will say “stop it”.  Too funny! 

Words Addie is saying:

Momma, Dadda, Cheese, Ruff Ruff, No, Yes, Please (it sounds more like just a long sssss), juice, Wawa (water), Jojo, up, down, go, off, hot, cold, hi, bye, night night, Addie, knock knock, mmmwahh (kiss sound), bzzz (like a bee), Meow, more (and signs it), snack, eat, book, baby

There are probably some that I am forgetting but these are the main words she says.  Here are some fun videos to enjoy:

First Temper Tantrum:

Playing with Daddy:

Old Video of her talking on the phone:

Riding in the Jeep:

Ok so I think that is enough for today.  Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!

Addie is ONE!

I can’t believe my precious little baby turned 1!! We had her first birthday party on her birthday February 5th. We had a great turn out and Addie had a wonderful time. We had so many great friends and family that came to celebrate with us. I will let the pictures do most of the talking:

All of these people are here to see ME?!?!?

some of the Birthday decor:

"Create A Valentine"

She wanted nothing to do with the cake, even when her daddy tried to shove her face in it.

SOOOO many presents!!! This child is in need of NOTHING! We were completely overwhelmed and humbled by all the love!

A couple family shots:

I wish I had better pictures of the precious outfit that was given to Addie by my mom (her JoJo) and made by one of our dear friends Jana. These are the best pics I can find that show the outfit (I will have to take a photo shoot with her in the outfit).

Addie's Aunt Christa also made her a slide show of her first year that was playing on loop at the party. I love the slide show and know Addie will love to watch it one day when she is older. Overall Addie had a great first birthday. She goes for her one year check up this week so I don't know any stats...I think she weighs about 18lbs (she is still a tiny little one). Right now she is currently still in 9 months (and some are still way to big). She has started clapping and waving while saying "bye bye". We like to sing if your happy and you know it clap your hands. She has started crawling more but still only does it if she really wants something. She really wants to be walking but just isn't fully capable yet but she really tries. She got tubes in her ears the week after her birthday and has been back to sleeping through the night since. Now she goes down at 7 and doesn't wake up until 6:45-7:30! It has been great for her and her parents :) She amazes Michael and myself every single day. She has shown us so much about who Christ is and about his love through her presence. Michael and I fall more in love with her every single day!

HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY ADDIE GRACE!!!

Shutterfly!

Hey ALL! So I am writing this blog to remind you (because I know you all already know) how great shutterfly is. It is a great place to store your pictures all in one place and not have to worry about your computer crashing. And once your pictures are there you can create all kinds of great things for gifts and your holiday cards!

Our first Christmas Card we sent was a shutterfly creation and we loved it! We were extremely happy with the way it turned out. Click on the link below to find out more about Shutterfly holiday cards:


http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/holiday-cards

Our First Christmas Card Together:

Shutterfly not only has great Cards but they have wonderful gift ideas including their photo books and calendars. I can't think of a better way to watch the days go by then looking at the greatest moments from years past. Check out the calendars here:

http://www.shutterfly.com/calendars/desk-calendars

Like I mentioned above I also think the photo books are a great gift for others and a treat for yourself. I created our wedding scrap book at the photo book link on shutterfly and love it!

Make sure you check out Shutterfly for all your holiday needs!

9 MONTHS! Halloween and Random thoughts:

Ok so here I am again late as usual. Addie turned 9 months old on Friday November 5th. She is still a light in our lives. She has the most precious personality and is so laid back. She is sitting up now which is awesome bc I wasn't sure this day would ever come. She will stand up if I put her hands on the coffee table but I am sure to stay right with her because she isn't too solid on her own yet. She has had 3 ear infections since June and the doctors say we are well on our way to the required 6 before she can get tubs put in. In a perfect world she wouldn't get another one EVER! She hasn't been to her 9 month check up yet so I will try to remember to update you on her stats. However Michael took her to the doctor a couple days ago for the ear infection and she weighed a little over 15 lbs with all her clothes on. She is still a wee little one, we are finally in 6-9 month clothes!

Things that I am uncertain about at this point:

• When should I start feeding her table food (obviously in bit size little pieces)? It makes me nervous she is going to choke.
• When should I introduce the sippy cup? I read online that you should try to start rotating a sippy cup in at about 6 months. Should I just put a little water in the cup and let her try that first?
• Is there something I can do to help promote crawling besides giving her tummy time and putting toys at little out of reaching distance?

For Halloween Addie was a baby chick and simply put was the cutest chick in the entire world. I actually bought the costume on whim at a consignment sale. It was too precious to pass up for $15! Most costumes I had seen (even at Old Navy) were atleast $30. It ended up being a GREAT purchase. I love my little chick.

Michael and I dressed up as Emma Pillsbury and Sue Sylvester from Glee (yes Michael dressed up like a girl)...We dressed up with two of our great friends from Bible Study Drew (Artie) and Shannon (Quin, pre-pregnancy). It was a lot of fun!

At this Halloween party I discovered a new love "Just Dance" on the Wii. I have not been sold on the Dance revolution and the Wii fit because one looks like a workout (no fun) and other more like just stomping around (no fun). So when I first was told about this game my expectations were not very high but then I saw it.... I wanted to play immediately and I must admit I was a little sad we had so many people there because it meant I only got to dance to THREE songs! But it was super fun because we had a dance off and it got pretty intense towards the end. Check out the pics below:

Lindsay was the ultimate winner but it was a tough challenge to take down her opponent (the male winner) Brett.

Michael has been busy lately (this is his busy time with work) and so it had been busy at our house. I am ready for things to slow down a little but I can't overlook the amazing season that is about to begin (the holidays). I really want to make an effort this year to not get too carried away in all the Christmas festivities to forget what this season is all about. I want to really remember how our savior was born and how incredible it is that he wasn't just placed on this earth as a grown king already (which he could have been) but that he was born a baby. He walked through life the same way we do. He had struggles like we do. The only difference is he overcame those struggles not just the big ones but every single little one that he encountered. I want to make sure that I remember Him during this time and who he was and is!

Lastly I have been a little down lately (no it isn't just because Alabama is not going to win the National Championship but, it doesn't help). I think it is because of the business of life. I hate when life gets so busy that we don't get to see our friends and family as much as we would like. I really want to focus on getting together with friends and spending quality time with my family. Right now I have a love/hate relationship with Fall. It has so many wonderful things like football, holidays etc. but it also fills up my calendar with those things and I can't see the end until January! I feel an overwhelming push to really start clearing my calendar for greater things. Here's to breaking out of my "box".

Oh and my brain is already racing with 1st birthday ideas!

BLESSED

Ok so Michael will probably think this post is uncalled for but I feel the need to BRAG ON MY HUSBAND. Michael truly is a wonderful husband and father. I am not going to lie I knew he would be which is one of the reasons I married him. Anyways I have been reminded a lot lately of how amazing he is and how blessed I am. Michael has Addie duty in the mornings. I had to change my work schedule to be at work at 7:30 each morning and Addie’s daycare doesn’t open until 8 putting Michael in charge of Addie’s mornings. He wakes her, dresses her and takes her to school each morning. I know he loves this time in the mornings with her because he tells me every day! The ladies at daycare have called him “A VERY INVOLVED DAD” and seem so impressed with his presence. Michael of course thinks it is sad that they are so impressed with an involved dad. Also the ladies at my office constantly tell me “Do you know how lucky you are?” And I think YES I DO. Michael called last Friday because he got off work a little early and said do you want me to pick up Addie so you can run some errands this afternoon? He volunteered to take over afternoon duty so I could get some things done. In our lives this is pretty normal volunteering to help each other out and we love doing it for each other and spending the extra time with Addie. Anyways Michael really does have such a big role in raising Addie and he still finds time to be a great friend and husband. The greatest part about when he helps out is he does it because he WANTS to and because he is Addie’s Dad and feels the responsibility to do it. He doesn’t see it as him doing me a favor (as some men do) but this is OUR child and OUR life and we are living it TOGETHER! I really do feel so blessed that he is my husband and my partner walking through life with me.